the hardest part about this whole thing, is the way it happened and by who... It was never my intention to end up this way. When i first found out, i was 17 fresh out of high school. Now i'm 18 and i'm due march 10th. The rollercoaster ride has been very frustrating. The father is active, but i really don't want anything from him because of what he did to me. My biggest fear is not being able to love my baby, becuse of the shit her father put me through. I have never told anybody the truth. I honestly feel no one would believe me, but it's kind of late for that, i mean by it being 9 months later.